Vicious Cycle

For the past few weeks, my life has been a total mess. I moved across the country for a job that didn't work out, and now I am sitting in a new apartment alone(except for my cats), wondering what to do. I have no job, my fiance is thousands of miles away, and I am now depressed and eating everything in sight.
So I have decided since my life gave me the biggest amount of lemons...I' saying screw it and moving back to where my fiance is. Did I spend thousands on the move to where I am? OF COURSE. But I am now just loosing more money than I am gaining. I am also gaining more weight because when I am stressed, I eat...and when I eat I gain weight. Along with the eating also comes my stomach and lady part pains. And with the pain comes depression, fatigue, irritability, and lots of pent up rage from my unfortunate situation. Its just a vicious cycle that is never ending.
I wish that when something in life made me stressed that it wouldn't cause my endo to flare up because it makes things so much harder to deal with. I know that a lot of the time I feel crappy but now it's even harder because my #1 supporter isn't here to cheer me on. I feel alone in a world that is jam packed with people.
So instead of packing on this rainy day like I should be doing...I choose netflix and kitty snuggles.